GRR IM MAD!!

boys I HATE BOYS!!! gosh im so mad! why cant boys be honest? please someone tell me and what the hell is wrong with them! grow up! ok every boys says girls mature faster than boys do but seriously not all of them can be immature and when the eff word are they gonna grow up! cuz it has been my excperience with older boys and younger boys they are all acting the same to me! ya know you tell a boy you dont want to kiss them they stop talking to you. you tell a boy you like them they ditch you of use you. you know the age old saying hump em and dump em well when the eff do boys grow up and stop living that way i mean dont they want someone dont they need someone just like girls do i would think that they do but sometimes they act so much like pigs its hard to see if they have any real feelings at all! GRRR im so frustrated and you know they say that girls are hard to understand no not really! sure we can be confusing but not all girls are hard to understand! im tired of putting it all out on the line and getting nothin back so world im giving up! and i mean it this time! i dont need boys they need me so from now on no feelings attached im going back to the freshman days when i had a one week plan! it worked out well i didnt have to worry about making some stupid boy happy! it was all about me! hahaha im selfish but im tired of being treated like some boys play toy! I AM NOT A MOUTH! there is actually something behind that! thats why i likes jake so much even tho i think he is gay now but he actually cared what is in my head hahaha its probably cuz he was gay! i think we should all just do tapangas idea from boy meets world just put all the boys in an underground cellar and pull them out when we need them! the world would be a better place! all our hearts would be safe and hey maybe some crapola would stop happening! prince charming where are you! im begining to think you dont exist anymore. life is hard and hurting the way i do sucks! i miss Quinn ok i said it but i do he was the best all he ever wanted to do was take care of me! he never bought me anything super expensive and that i loved because i felt like he wasnt trying to buy me! he was always just there! and i miss Ashy shes my best friend and im so lonely without her! gosh im tired of crying over stupid things like boys and loneliness stuff i cant change but if there is one wish i could have right now it would be that i could actually find someone to love and love me back!

Love. Peace. Life SUCKS!

Dancing thru Summer!

Well hello! its been awhile i guess a lot has happened! well to start ive had a long freaking week at summer school! oy im glad that is over only three days left! today i went to work all day and WOAH am i tired! ok so on thursday i went up to blackfoot to go to a jean party for my ex ast coach tiffany yeah the jeans were SO SO cute but way to expensive i wanted to cry! but i was hanging out with Shy and Kylee gosh i love those girls we had so much fun! we played on the tramp and made smores and sat there and laughed forever! haha it was a blast then after i left kylees house i got lost and so i called Quinn and he came and rescued me what a nice boy huh! we talked forever and i have to say i have missed him so much! its hard not to fall for him again cuz ill be honest if he asked me tomorrow i would marry him cuz i know we would have a fun life full of love and happiness haha im corny but yeah i think him and his girly got back together like the next day which kinda sucks but he is too far away any way! but gosh i wish............ anyway so then yesterday me and my mom got into a huge fight about fish it was the stupidest thing ever but i was mad so i left and went and chilled at work and watched movies in the employees lounge and tiff came and chilled with me for a bit it was fun then after that we went to deckers! oy it was so not fun! first the boys were being mean like always but they kept teasing me about my SR boyfriends and i dont have any so that was gay and then they were just being jerks and we went to jack in the box and mandy didnt want to ride with me which made me mad cuz i wanted to have a dance party but oh well she picked the boys car but whatever and then decker called mckaid gay and he kept hitting me with a bat and i was like you are an ass hole! haha everyone was shocked! i was pissed so we got back to deckers and i left and i was so so mad and i was alreayd mad cuz of the fight with mom so i went home and cried myself to sleep! haha fun stuff!! i talked to ashy yesterday ( yes you ash) and she said that jase might have to go to training for a month so she might fly me out to stay with her for a month OH MY FUN! but the only negative is my handsome doesnt get home til like the middle of july and ill be goin out to stay with ash at the end of july but oh well i waited for him he can wait for me! :) :) cuz im not missing that for the world! well i got ta go we are going to elmers! my message today is find love and keep it! oh yea and last night i had a dream that i owned a dance studio it was the cutest thing so ive decided im def gonna have one when i grow up!! FUN!!

peace. Love. Safe the whales

oy what an interesting day!

Hes the one i hold tight, the one i reach for in the middle of the night, the one i grab when ive had a fright, loveable and cuddly always there to tell my secrets to teddy bears cant stab you in the back cuz they dont have hands! there always there no matter what and when you dont need them you give them up to someone else to share, for all the pain and hurt you go threw teddy bears are there to hold you! Always there with love and care, he'll always be my teddy bear!

wow what a awfully wierd day i have had! it all began when i went outside this morning to go to school and someone soaped my car GRRR how annoying! i hate that so so so so bad! it drives me crazy! then on the way to school i learned that i dont have XM anymore :( then i went to school!! SNOOZE SNOOZE SNOOZE!! then i had to take my car to get the oil changed and i learned that my car guy jerry moved to honda! gosh that just sucks he said he would hook me up! then i almost died trying to cross the street! people are impatient! then i had to come home! gosh i wish i lived in a different state than my family! ok i love them all oh so much! they truely are the world to me but some days they get me sooo mad that i just want to sit in a lil ball and cry! maybe its cuz im a senior and all seniors get like this but i have never been the typical person idk maybe its cuz im having texting withdrawls im so sad! i want my handsome to come home to cheer me up he is traveling with his papa so he cant call and he barely texts! i hate it! i wish that life would be easier sometimes! but im glad that there are trials to make it hard that way things are worth more! haha oh yeah and we were outside all day for school and i got sunburned but hopefully it will turn into a tan:) only two weeks left! then the world will be flipped upside down! and i have a question why the eff do ppl get married! i thought it was for love and you trusted them you saw a future with them and they just completed you! haha someone should probably tell me why ppl really do it! well my message for today is hang on! days get hard some days suck but you know for every bad day a good one follows choose to be happy becuase being sad is atomatic happiness is a choice you make everyday! love yourself and those around you be thankful for this beautiful world god gave us and enjoy nature dont fear it! calm relaxing time is a must and when you love someone just tell them!

Love. Peace. Be happy!

ONE TREE HILL DRUGGIE!!

hahaha i know nice what a nice face i have huh!!

why hello ppl! alright this one is gonna be a long one cuz i havent written in a week so im gonna try and remeber everything that happened! well sunday night me and liz slept outside it was wonderful nice and warm mmm it was great it made me miss ashy and nick a lot tho thats what we always did when we were lil we would sleep outside on the tramp and look at the stars and when it got cold ash would sneak in and make a jar of hot cocoa and i dont think we ever drank it we would just hold it to keep warm!! :)

Tuesday well i dont think i did anything too important

Wednesday im thinkin this was the day me and mandy went on this large bike ride haha oh it was so much fun and then after that i went to a bonfire down at the highway pond! oh it was sooo much fun! i love bonfires with friends! and my friends are usually way fun to play with at bonfires cuz it doesnt get crazy cuz they dont drink so we all just chill and relax and chat! its fun!!

Thursday mom and dad left for bear lake its there 26th wedding aniversary. i dyed my hair PINK! hahah ok just one lil strip and yea it washes out! but it was way fun me and alix did it! then i went and played on the swings with this boy i just met Eric haha yea nothing happened but its ok i didnt want anything too! he was just fun to talk to! he tried to kiss me but i wouldnt let him! dont worry ashy hes a good mormon boy haha well i guess! oh yeah and me and casey got into a big fight because he is being the biggest baby on the planet! he is whinning cuz i dont go see him but im like hey man i aint your girly i dont have to go see you and idk he drives me crazy sometimes i like him as a friend and he is fun to chill with but i could never be his girl too demanding!

Friday i didnt have to go to school until 9 hmmmm it was great then after that i went to work then i went boating oh my it was so so so much fun! i got up on the wakeboard my first try! ohhh it was so much fun! then me and liz just chilled after i got home! i was up late talkin on the fun :)

Saturday got up and went to work than i went and saw maria at her work and took her some taco bell then i went home and chilled with liz then we got bored so we went and bought the first season of one tree hill and maria came over with food and then alix came over with more food and we all sat and watched it and then maria got addicted and we could not turn it off! haha we stayed up oh so late and now i am dead tired! i was on the phone last night with my handsome and gosh i was so out of it! excpecially toward the end... :) if you know me at all you know that i get absoulutly nutso when im tired and i do and say the wierdest things also im like the wierdest sleeper i eat and talk and walk in my sleep answer my phone and sometimes call ppl hahaha its an adventure! well last night i decided while on the phone with my handsome i was gonna tell him how i really felt oh gosh all i remember is saying i love you i love you! AHH scary i dont remember what he said back! haha which is no bueno! now im not mad that i told him i loved him because i think it just might be true!:) im just mad that i told him when i was all loopy and i have no idea how i said it or what he said back! oh gosh what an adventure!

Sunday we woke up early to go to church and we were both dead tired! then during church i sat with liz mike and lil green because there parents arent there either cuz his sissy just had a baby and we talked about all the gossip and drama going on in our group! i hate drama its pretty ridiculous! haha i cant wait to get out of highschool so i wont have to deal with immature girls any more!! well my message today is when you love someone tell them right then and there out loud cuz if you dont the moment will just pass you by and you will regret it! have you ever noticed on tv shows it will be like person a will tell person b that they love them and person b will get scarred and not say it back so then person a is heart broken and they move on and right as they do person b discovers they love person a so they go to tell them but its too late! dont be someone like that people! love is an emotion just like being sad just like being happy and think of all the times you say im happy out loud and how easy it is so when you feel the love just say it! out loud!!! i hope you all have a wonderful sunday im gonna go nappy time!!

Love. Peace. Just tell them!

Boatin time!!!

hahaha ashy you make me laugh i get on and my blog is all prettified well i cant talk long i will right later tonight but i wanted to tell you all im goin boating with mandy tiff and john and i am THRILLED i can not wait to get out in the water on a wakeboard ohhh there is nothin like it! im sooo excited!! oh yes and i think i have fallen for this boy im not gonna tell you his name but shhhh dont tell him! haha he makes me smile and i just i dont know!! :) im twiterpated so we will see what happens i just wanted to tell you all before i go an do a very dangerous activity that i love you all! I love my friends they are wonderful and help me with so much I LOVE my family they are all my heroes we would be the family of super heroes you all are soo wonderful and the inspiration to my life i love you all so much you are all irreplacable!! Im gooshy I want to tell you all that i have faith and believes in the true church which is the church of jesus christ of latter day saints without it i would be no where! the standards and values are what make me to be what i think a great person! i love life and if there is anything you could learn from me is to stop whining and just go out and live it make memories do stupid things kiss and love be happy and CTR! i love you Safe and peace be with you!
Love. Peace. Be Grateful!!

Happy D-Day

me and my daddy and holy crapola i look like a baby this is in oregon and i think it was eighth grade! WOW daddy looks the same tho! <3

I hate cheerleaders!! :) i know i know you are all saying um excuse me sara you were a cheerleader but seriously its like they are so snobby i hope i wasnt that snobby im sorry to all of you if i was i think i already told you all this story but i will tell you again and then i will tell you about my weekend cuz it was a bueno one! i was driving home from work the other day just rockin out you know doin what i do. and Anna m. drove past me thinkin she is all cool what a ho! she only made the squad because there wasnt anyone to choose from. and she has tried out every year since 8th grade and has never made it until this year that says something about there coach. so im like ohhh ho and i pass her and dont look so then she passes me again cuz i slowed down cuz i didnt want to get another ticket so she passes me and i dont look at her i flip her the bird but no where she could see it.... haha yeah ash you taught me that... and then i look up and she waves and i smile and wave back and threw my teeth im like you ho you think your sooo cool but im gonna beat your A!! haha im funny when im angry! but anyway MY WEEKEND!!

well i went to youth conference for church down in Logan on friday after school and it was a blast! I love Alix and Gabby we had so so so much fun in our room! and the dance was fun really retarded but still fun. and we went to some billionairs house and i saw the fastest most expensive car in the world! yeah i touched it! and then i saw my future car in my dreams a ferrari f 430 WOW im in love. and then the billionairs name was richard harris and he gave the best talk i have ever heard.. and then his daughter sang jenny phillips OMG she is AMAZING!! yeah her music will be played at the receiption of my wedding!! just FYI but then saturday wasnt that fun ok it was kinda fun but some parts were lame like this stupid scavenger hung!! :( but i had so much fun! then i got home and was dead yesterday so i took a shower and crunched my hair haha i dont have curly hair like my sissys and i went cruising haha yeah i got hit on a ton and got some hotties number and then this is the honest truth of what happened. so i was gonna go see casey allen cuz i didnt have anything else to do but decker and those guys wanted me to go over to mikes so i was gonna go say hi to casey and then go say hi to those guys but i had to wait for casey to get out of the shower and so i went to the stake center and i was just chillin there lookin at the stars and the city and stuff and then My stud Muffin called... no i wont tell you his name! and so i got all happy and i just absolutly ditched everyone so i could sit on the phone with him and everyone was texting me but i just didnt car cuz i was talkin to him! haha im a goober but its true .... i just went home and sat in my room and talked and if you know me you know that i dont like talkin on the phone cuz i usually have notta to say but when i was talkin to him i just had so much i wanted to tell him. so i basically spilled my guts and told him all the bad things well not all but some and he didnt care! haha yeah so i think im fallin for him which is bad cuz i have also fallen for this other boy and he is soo cute and nice and everyone in my fam loves him but i just cant help it i guess i will have to choose which sucks cuz i suck at choosing!! gosh idk how i get myself into these situations but i always do ya know. ive decided that im just gonna be completely honest to everyone and tell them all how i really feel ya know. and in the end if i end up alone i guess that is what is meant to be! then today after church my aunt chelle and my grandpa and my cousin and his friend and his dad allen came over to show us their new harley davidsons haha they are cute i wish i had girl cousins that were my age that would be fun!! but then after that me and mandy went for a walk up cherry creek ya we were eatin by mosquitos but it was fun and worth it. we always have the best talks haha they are always so random but like they always hit the spot! :)

i hate growing up senior year is gonna be the hardest one yet because this is the year that you basically decided who you are gonna be in life. i just wish i was five again then ashy would be home and the fab. 4 would all go out into the field and play in the cannel and have our own lil adventures! gosh i miss the good old days sooo bad i hate growing apart from my bro and sissys. me and liz have always been tight but ya know its hard because we will always be family but then someday we will each have our own families gosh! its hard growing up Life is just hard so just live it and have no regrets on any decision you make and be daring and out going and be crazy sometimes and when you love someone tell them and when you admire someone tell them! just always tell ppl the truth!

my message for today is be honest. cuz honesty is the best policy and no one likes to be lied to and no one likes lying so everyone should all just stop lying! well i just want to say also being as it is fathers day that i have the best poppy in the world he is my hero 100% he always knows how to make me feel better he yells at me when he should and lets me slid when i want to :) he is the best daddy ever and he puts up with a lot he is a true soldier of god and he will and has done Amazing and miraculous things in his life! I love you Daddy!! well i hope you all have a bueno day i will write back soon and tell you how the boy thing is coming.

Peace. Love. Happy Daddy Day and Just tell the truth~

SUMMER BOYS!!!

me and liz playin dress up!!

GRRR i dislike boys so much! here are the three im dealing with... no names! boy 1 the sweet talker tellin me whatever he needs to to get me to be happy! although most of it is CRAPOLA a good 85% of the time and yet i still fall for it gosh im such a girl sometimes! Boy 2 the sweet lil one always buying me nice things and saying nice things and doing nice things and yet i still cant make him happy! gosh there i go being a ho! and boy 3 the mystery the boy that everyone does think twice about until he gives you attention and then you just want to spend all your time solving him! you love talkin to him and everyone hates that you do! haha but you just cant help yourself see there i go being a rebel... but im enjoying every min of it cuz my middle name is rebel!! :) everyone knows these boys basically boys are catagorized just like plus a few others boy 4 the joke you make him happy easy you make him mad easy basically he is just easy all the way around you boy 5 the jack player... the boy that wants a realtionship but also wants everyone elses relationship these boys are boring and get old quick basically they are just booty calls and my fav boy 6 the mr man the big hunk possible tall dark and handsome they boy everyone wants to marry! he isnt perfect but he is reasonable good at everything he does but he is too humble to say it they make the best bf cuz they are just sooo perfect at times! yep those are my catagories for boys but you cant do that with girls cuz there are way to many! :) girls are complicated! so summer school SUCKS!! i hate every min of it but luckily i think i only have 3 hours of it tomorrow!! YAY!! work was alright today super busy! i went to a bonfire tonight at connor's mommas house which is fun! there house is sooo nice and they have the cutest lil wilderness area ya know its sooo cute they have a lil creek and a bridge and a tp area a lil out house and a huge firepit! its so nice it was fun except you know boys they are always so mean to the cute girls! haha and its wierd but i wish my friends have drank before i dont like drinking at all its STUPID but they are so hard on ppl who have made mistakes like that! i hate that they act like they are perfect! it drives me crazy! well my message today is go play in the rain! cuz it is just soo much fun! forgive ppl that have made mistakes because its not the person thats bad its the mistake they made that is bad! love everyone equally no matter who they are and fyi dont put boys anywhere near a fire! its an equation for disaster

Love. Peace. WWJD

Cold and Windy Days make you miss the one that keeps your heart warm!! :)

the day the football team applauded haha excepted this pic was touched up a bit! PRETTY!

So today was way windy and cold! hahaha so i couldnt enjoy nature as much as i wanted to cuz i dont enjoy being cold! but i did some yoga so i feel at peace! :) well as usually im a lil lost in my decision process! like usual! I hate boys...ok i dont hate them. Hate is to storng of a word! but i dislike how they use you as some kinda trophy! i just dont get that even tho i have done it i dont know how we think that anyone is being jealous of us! haha cuz they dont they just think you are stupid! i hate goin out on pointless dates but i always feel to bad to say no! so this boy asked me out on a date for tomorrow and i do not want to go! he is friends with quinn well kinda and i know he is just doin it so he can say we went out! haha im kinda a big deal in Sr isnt that wierd when i was there i was notta but now that i left im the hot girl that comes back to visit! Quinn used to love to take me out there especially for student events! he would always grab my hand and lead me threw everyone kinda parade me around i didnt mind so much cuz it was like he was proud but it got old! haha i remember ppls faces were the funniest! haha one time i went to one of his practices just the end and i was playin on the track with shy and susan and the whole football team applauded Quinn and gave him high fives and a slap on the butt for having a hot girlfriend haha funny stuff huh Shy was a lil upset! but idk it was fun! its wierd how ppl dont notice you until you are gone and come back! haha its amazing to think that every girl out there is always like im fat and im ugly and no one likes me... but seriously you dont know how you are effecting ppls lives and you are all beautiful! no matter what anyone says and the best way to show your beauty is to find the beauty and goodness in others i know that sounds corny but it is soooo true if you are always lookin on the upside people never look at your downside. :) remember positive energy given away is positive energy recieved. So guess who Texted me this morning at one am....Ryan w. haha funny stuff huh! i think it is funny cuz he loves to play his lil game on me and i wont lie i have fallen for it a few times but honestly those kinda boys as gorgeous and nice as they are you just cant trust what they are saying. its kinda sad too cuz i fell for him HARD like i was planning our future together and i was making adjustments to my goals so that it would match his life style. He is the best sweet talker! he just always knows how to make your day and how to make you smile! oh gosh i cant talk about it to much or it brings up negative feelings. cuz he is always the one i want to be like just pick me and settle down and i promise i will do whatever i can to make you happy no matter what cuz you always make me happy, but i promised myself last time i recooperated from his game that i wouldnt fall for it again! so when i woke up this morning at 6 i texted him back and gave him a lil wake up call hehe i knew he wouldnt text back! its hard to let ppl you want go its really really hard but sometimes the ppl that drive you crazy are the worst for you! but anyway school is a drag but today was kinda fun! i love dallas and brendon they are hilarious and such nice boys! :) they make school fun! and Mandy for sure makes school fun! and Alix haha sorry that im such a drag in the car im just soo tired and brain dead from school! im missin my sissy these days! i wish she would come home! well my message today is never sell yourself short! you are worth something and it is amazing when you stop and look around at all the ppl that depend on you and love you! just remember to count your blessing and live for the day! cuz you never know when it will be your last!

Love.Peace. Be Thankful!

I love Nature Dancing!!:)

All us cheerleaders dancing away im the one closest to ya the blonde!!

Today was the best worst day!!! it was the worst because i started summer school! its so boring and it is hard to sit in the same spot for 7 hours and i hate trying to learn stuff so fast it never soaks in so for the next three weeks my brain will be on over drive becuase i want to learn everything i can from government! i have decided that nature is AMAZING it really clears your head and puts you back in focus! i found my new favorite spot in poky! It mine lizs alix and gabbys spot but i went the other way on the trail today with mom and liz and OH MY it was beautiful and amazing and i didnt want to go home! and i did a lil dance sess. for mom liz sang and i did my beautiful lyrical! ohhh it was so amazing im in love with nature i wish every day was nice like it was tonight it was just the perfect temp. not to hot not to cold! im def goin up there with someone special cuz it was absolutly fantastic! i just cant get over it! so im tellin you all to get off this computer after you finish reading my blog and go explore the world outside your door! and dont forget music! i just cant relax without music my thoughts drown my brain in the silence! i love dancing i danced for mom and it is just the best way to work things out the motions and the grace just puts everything back into its place! i love it when it is not planned and it is not censored when it is just you and the music in your head and you are dancing to your own beat! haha im such a nerd sometimes! well i met a boy too bad he isnt in the STATE! haha but i told him all about me even my faults and the wierd thing is is that he seemed ok with them! like they werent a big deal which made me feel a lot better! i mean you can ask for forgivness and be forgiven but the guilt doesnt stop! but i think im gettin over it!:) No ash dont worry its nothing to bad and if you want to know more just call! :) i love it when you meet new ppl and they make you feel like something that you have never felt before. i met this boy jake a while back and i think he is gay or bi~ haha but he always treated me like i was smart which i am but no one has ever talked to me like he did you know it was like he actually cared what i thought and we actually talked about books! haha thats a first ever cuz i usually date jocks and the only thing they read is playboy! hahaha jk jk there are a lot of smart jocks so dont get me wrong! its just nice to meet ppl with different points of view to put your world in a different out look! ya know! ash always dated those deep kinda guys i always thought they were wierd but maybe it was because she could actually have a meaning conversation with them! haha the world makes sense again! haha at family home evening today dad made me and liz sing a duet hahaha it was great well my message for today is go outside and be thankful we live in such a beautiful world! take advantage of it and live every moment in the sun! pray for rain and warm weather! And be thankful for DIRT !

Peace. Love. Ill see ya outside!:)

Growing up is hard to do!

me lookin for adventure! HELLO WHERE ARE YOU?

Hola I just got home from Jonnys house. We have all been friends since 8th grade and its wierd to think of all the boring stuff we have done and we thought was fun! ok so jonnys house is usually fun and it was alright tonight usually i have to think of something fun to do to start the party but tonight i was just to tired so its nice to just chill with the boys. hahaha so ive had this crush on this boy forever like since i met him! hahaha and we are really close friends and nothin has ever happened but their is just something about him that gets me, haha its funny to think now that i have never told him and we are way older now! but oh well we all have to have our own lil secrets now dont we! its funny you do the wierdest things when you were lil. i need to get more sleep when i was younger i was the life of the party and i truly was i would do all sorts of stupid crazy things so everyone would have fun watching and i usually have fun doing. Its my goal to get that back! haha so anyway i worked today like usual i hate growing up now i have to take a nap on saturday cuz im soo wore out from the week! im such a loser! :) oh well it was a good nap! oh last night shy came down and we went and saw what happens in vegas oh my the cutest show it was sooo funny i recommend it highly! it was soo cute! ashton kutcher and cameron diaz look good together! hmm well im missin some ppl tonight! i wish they would text back faster! gosh well im gonna go watch a movie with nick and jenny i swear something exciting is goin to happen soon and i will tell you all about it but for now just chill in idaho!

Love.Peace. I miss you.

Rainy Friday

Mandy and I being a pig(mandy) and a cow (me)

Good Morning!!! so i have much to tell you! well lets see yesterday i was late for work and dad got SUPER mad i mean he said the eff word twice opps my bad! haha so not the best way to start off the day but then things got better i got a lot of work done and Zac brought me a milkshake haha he loves spending his money on me! Then work ended! YAY and on my way how this crazy motorcyler hit on me haha fun stuff my car is a guy magnet i swear! and then i got a $140 ticket! AWW SUCK i was only goin 17 over dad wasnt very happy man that sucks soooo bad! i hate cops! then i went and played baseball with Zac, Z banana, and toad it was fun! i suck at baseball and we played on the swings and yeah it was a blast then we came home and me and liz were just chillin watchin tv and nick and jenny showed up with posterboard and paint and we fingerpainted! WE FINGER PAINTED! it was sooo much fun mine and nicks creation was the best i must say! hahaha it was a blast! then i went to sleep well actually i was textin this boy and i told him i was tired and he said he would let me go to sleep and i said no ill tell you before i go to sleep and then i fell asleep without sayin goodnight hahaha im funny! i do that all the time thats why i dont talk on the phone at night becuase i usually fall asleep! plus when im tired i get hyper hahaha just ask my family. and i get blunt and very talkative i will basically tell you anything you want to hear if you catch me on the right night! secrets im not supposed to tell and everything its kinda bad! hahaha but fun until i wake up the next morning and realize i just spilled my guts to someone! haha but anyway its only 10:36 and i have the whole day to do whatever i want its my day off! so i think i will go shopping, play in the rain, maybe go to a movie idk yet but no worries ill tell ya whats up! so my message for this morning is dont be afraid to act like a 4 year old again because no matter how old you get you are never to old to go play at a park, finger paint at 10 o clock at night, or buy coloring books and color! live life to its fullest!

Love. Peace. Dont Grow up to Fast!

Summer Summer Summer

My heros Ash and Nick!!!

Hola and welcome to the most boring day of my life! so i went to work this morning and didnt have a real convo with another human being all day long! it was awful!!! but i made it threw! so last night me and nick had a heart to heart and he told me all about his crazy days his senior plus years. he is such a good big bro. he told me all about the mistakes he has made and he said he is going to make sure i dont do the same. i honestly think that is the best thing......that is how people should teach ppl to stay away from danger. gosh my family is smart we so should have our own sitcom meet the kellys, keeping up with the kellys the kelly show hahahaa it would be a blast and the best tv show ever. isnt it funny how life can be like a movie sometimes and other times it is sooo not even. cuz movies always work out and life most of the time throws some curve balls in there. any who so after work i went and saw mandy at work and tiff came in cuz mandy got off at 7 and tiff started at 7 and may i just say i love tiff she is soo funny! ppl under estimate her becuause she is shy but she is the best then after that me and mandy went to deckers bday party HOLY BORING it was a snooze but i love his family they are hilarious well at least his mom and no ash and jase phil wasnt there and no ash and jase i am NOT marrying phil so dont tease me! hahaha i had nick come get me cuz mandy drove. he is basically my hero lately then i came home and watched georgia rule its actually a good movie i really dont like lindsay lohan but it had a good message to it and it was in idaho and there was a boy goin on a mission in it! poky is boring but i think it is only boring becuase i have to much of a condensed group of friends i think you have to be willin to go out there and not know what you are doing that night and go hang out with some ppl you dont know! haha meeting new ppl is fun! and i love getting to know diff groups of ppl! so that is my goal for the summer im gonna meet lots and lots and lots of new ppl!! its gonna be an adventure YAY! dont worry ill be safe! but i hate simple small minded ppl! its like deckers bday party sure it wasnt a drinking party but it could have been fun if ppl had done anything all they wanted to do was play video games and watch movies! i mean LETS GROW UP PPL!!! yeah i cant wait to meet new ppl!! haha so my message today is to not be shy put yourself out there and dont be afraid or even care about what other ppl might think about you! ill let you all know about all the new ppl i meet! hopefully it will be a lot! :)
Peace. Love. Lets Grow!

Cupcakes and Arizona!!

i think im a freshman in this pic. i look so lil haha but im diggin my face im a BABE! i look like the crazy frog!

haha Im eatin Cupcakes and im drinkin an arizona all alone cuz i have no one to play with becuase my family has left me to go the cabin. but yay i have the whole house to myself well except for nick but he is never home so he doesnt count. he is being a butt hole today it was pouring rain and i was like nick do you have a sweatshirt cuz we had to pull the lawn mowers inside becuase it was pouring and he was like no i dont have a sweatshirt so i go outside and get soaked and i come back in to the store and nick is sitting on the phone in a sweatshirt!!! can you believe that what a poo head. and then he doesnt even help us! grrr he makes me so mad sometimes. but any way today i have no plans im supposed to be hanging out with mandy but im not sure thats going to happen!! cuz she is at mckenzie dubucks going away party and kenzie hates my guts y you ask because she went to homecoming with bryndon belnap and then he got a crush on me and she got mad! it was no bueno every time she looked at me she looked like she wanted to eat me alive. it was quiet scary! but she kinda got over it and every thing mellowed out. its funny how many ppl can hate you for absolutly no reason! i have a few that absolutly hate me for boy reasons ppl i havent talked to in years hate me for things they have heard about me and isnt that stupid. i dont hate people for things i hear about them i might think they are stupid and i might think they are annoying. but i dont hate them. idk what it is but girls have this thing when they are immature they hate ppl for no reason. hahhaa i was once like that jr high days but guess what i grew up! people just need to know when to grow up! hold im so bored! i have notta to do tonight and mandy wants me to go hang out with some ppl im not friends with right now again. gosh i really dont like this i need new friends i need a new boy thats what i need . cuz ppl are always sayin i dont want a boy i want to hang out with my friends but my freakin friends wont hang out with my cuz they are lesbian so i might as well just get a boy! but i dont want just any boy i want a good one possibly thee one ya know my prince charming! i havent met thee one yet but i know he is out there somewhere! at least im prayin he is! well my thought of the day is friends suck! no matter who they are they always turn out to be crap except for the ones that you have known your whole life for me its Shy she has always been there for me when i need her well when i really need her. not like tonight and it sucks cuz we live so far away so its like we are in two diff worlds and so she hangs out with her friends and i usually hang out with mine . idk i wish we lived in the same city and had the same friends that way we could always play and it would be so much fun! so yeah im gonna go watch a movie cuz im depressed and that is what you do that or write dark poetry using descriptive nouns and fooling everyone to thing you are talkin about suicide when you are really talkin about the garbage disposal haha not that ive done that! but any who ttyl p.s. remember give out positive energy and you will attract.

Love. Peace. Go at the world alone with a smile!!

summer night!

me mandy and tiff on our way to state cheer!! ahh im not a cheerleader anymore but those were fun times!!

why hello! i havent wrote in a long time. its cuz yesterday i got summer sick and was throwing up yicky but im much much better today. so today i woke up and took alix to poky so she could take some test then i went to work and had a blast i like work when there is a lot to do. cuz then you are never bored. oh yeah and Zac this very sweet boy sent me flowers today at work roses isnt he sweet. it was kinda embarrassing tho but totally worth it! then after work i went on a long bike ride with mandy and tiff it was SOO much fun i love the outdoors i wish it was hot all year round so i could be outside 24/7 well any way i just thought i would write cuz i couldnt sleep and i was watchin a movie and it made me think a lot. i was watching sleeping with the enemy you know the one with julia roberts, isnt she amazing i mean seriously she is like one of my fav. and she always plays the girl that isnt lookin for love but finds it any way oh gosh she is so good. but in the movie i was watching her husband beats her for 3 years 7 months and 6 days haha yeah she tells us and then she fakes her own death and runs away and starts a new life. i mean how amazing! she is so brave haha then she meets this studly beautiful kind hearted man who teachs her to love again im not going to tell you the end so if you havent seen it you will just have to watch it and see if she ends up back with the dirt bag husband or the studly gorgeous guy! but it made me think so this is my message today love finds you when you arent lookin for it. and isnt that the truth my mom and dad met at the grocery store my mom worked at she was a senior and my dad was like 4 years out of high school. my ashy and jase met at a park because jase locked the keys in the car. hahaha i really hope i have a great love story like theres! i dont want something stupid! :) i cant wait to grow up it will be fun to have my own life. im so totally scared of the real world but its the biggest adventure and i just can not wait!! well im off to bed cuz its late and im doin pilates in the morning i will hopefully write you sooner
Peace. Love. And dont go lookin let it find you