ONE TREE HILL DRUGGIE!!

hahaha i know nice what a nice face i have huh!!

why hello ppl! alright this one is gonna be a long one cuz i havent written in a week so im gonna try and remeber everything that happened! well sunday night me and liz slept outside it was wonderful nice and warm mmm it was great it made me miss ashy and nick a lot tho thats what we always did when we were lil we would sleep outside on the tramp and look at the stars and when it got cold ash would sneak in and make a jar of hot cocoa and i dont think we ever drank it we would just hold it to keep warm!! :)

Tuesday well i dont think i did anything too important

Wednesday im thinkin this was the day me and mandy went on this large bike ride haha oh it was so much fun and then after that i went to a bonfire down at the highway pond! oh it was sooo much fun! i love bonfires with friends! and my friends are usually way fun to play with at bonfires cuz it doesnt get crazy cuz they dont drink so we all just chill and relax and chat! its fun!!

Thursday mom and dad left for bear lake its there 26th wedding aniversary. i dyed my hair PINK! hahah ok just one lil strip and yea it washes out! but it was way fun me and alix did it! then i went and played on the swings with this boy i just met Eric haha yea nothing happened but its ok i didnt want anything too! he was just fun to talk to! he tried to kiss me but i wouldnt let him! dont worry ashy hes a good mormon boy haha well i guess! oh yeah and me and casey got into a big fight because he is being the biggest baby on the planet! he is whinning cuz i dont go see him but im like hey man i aint your girly i dont have to go see you and idk he drives me crazy sometimes i like him as a friend and he is fun to chill with but i could never be his girl too demanding!

Friday i didnt have to go to school until 9 hmmmm it was great then after that i went to work then i went boating oh my it was so so so much fun! i got up on the wakeboard my first try! ohhh it was so much fun! then me and liz just chilled after i got home! i was up late talkin on the fun :)

Saturday got up and went to work than i went and saw maria at her work and took her some taco bell then i went home and chilled with liz then we got bored so we went and bought the first season of one tree hill and maria came over with food and then alix came over with more food and we all sat and watched it and then maria got addicted and we could not turn it off! haha we stayed up oh so late and now i am dead tired! i was on the phone last night with my handsome and gosh i was so out of it! excpecially toward the end... :) if you know me at all you know that i get absoulutly nutso when im tired and i do and say the wierdest things also im like the wierdest sleeper i eat and talk and walk in my sleep answer my phone and sometimes call ppl hahaha its an adventure! well last night i decided while on the phone with my handsome i was gonna tell him how i really felt oh gosh all i remember is saying i love you i love you! AHH scary i dont remember what he said back! haha which is no bueno! now im not mad that i told him i loved him because i think it just might be true!:) im just mad that i told him when i was all loopy and i have no idea how i said it or what he said back! oh gosh what an adventure!

Sunday we woke up early to go to church and we were both dead tired! then during church i sat with liz mike and lil green because there parents arent there either cuz his sissy just had a baby and we talked about all the gossip and drama going on in our group! i hate drama its pretty ridiculous! haha i cant wait to get out of highschool so i wont have to deal with immature girls any more!! well my message today is when you love someone tell them right then and there out loud cuz if you dont the moment will just pass you by and you will regret it! have you ever noticed on tv shows it will be like person a will tell person b that they love them and person b will get scarred and not say it back so then person a is heart broken and they move on and right as they do person b discovers they love person a so they go to tell them but its too late! dont be someone like that people! love is an emotion just like being sad just like being happy and think of all the times you say im happy out loud and how easy it is so when you feel the love just say it! out loud!!! i hope you all have a wonderful sunday im gonna go nappy time!!

Love. Peace. Just tell them!

Cold and Windy Days make you miss the one that keeps your heart warm!! :)

the day the football team applauded haha excepted this pic was touched up a bit! PRETTY!

So today was way windy and cold! hahaha so i couldnt enjoy nature as much as i wanted to cuz i dont enjoy being cold! but i did some yoga so i feel at peace! :) well as usually im a lil lost in my decision process! like usual! I hate boys...ok i dont hate them. Hate is to storng of a word! but i dislike how they use you as some kinda trophy! i just dont get that even tho i have done it i dont know how we think that anyone is being jealous of us! haha cuz they dont they just think you are stupid! i hate goin out on pointless dates but i always feel to bad to say no! so this boy asked me out on a date for tomorrow and i do not want to go! he is friends with quinn well kinda and i know he is just doin it so he can say we went out! haha im kinda a big deal in Sr isnt that wierd when i was there i was notta but now that i left im the hot girl that comes back to visit! Quinn used to love to take me out there especially for student events! he would always grab my hand and lead me threw everyone kinda parade me around i didnt mind so much cuz it was like he was proud but it got old! haha i remember ppls faces were the funniest! haha one time i went to one of his practices just the end and i was playin on the track with shy and susan and the whole football team applauded Quinn and gave him high fives and a slap on the butt for having a hot girlfriend haha funny stuff huh Shy was a lil upset! but idk it was fun! its wierd how ppl dont notice you until you are gone and come back! haha its amazing to think that every girl out there is always like im fat and im ugly and no one likes me... but seriously you dont know how you are effecting ppls lives and you are all beautiful! no matter what anyone says and the best way to show your beauty is to find the beauty and goodness in others i know that sounds corny but it is soooo true if you are always lookin on the upside people never look at your downside. :) remember positive energy given away is positive energy recieved. So guess who Texted me this morning at one am....Ryan w. haha funny stuff huh! i think it is funny cuz he loves to play his lil game on me and i wont lie i have fallen for it a few times but honestly those kinda boys as gorgeous and nice as they are you just cant trust what they are saying. its kinda sad too cuz i fell for him HARD like i was planning our future together and i was making adjustments to my goals so that it would match his life style. He is the best sweet talker! he just always knows how to make your day and how to make you smile! oh gosh i cant talk about it to much or it brings up negative feelings. cuz he is always the one i want to be like just pick me and settle down and i promise i will do whatever i can to make you happy no matter what cuz you always make me happy, but i promised myself last time i recooperated from his game that i wouldnt fall for it again! so when i woke up this morning at 6 i texted him back and gave him a lil wake up call hehe i knew he wouldnt text back! its hard to let ppl you want go its really really hard but sometimes the ppl that drive you crazy are the worst for you! but anyway school is a drag but today was kinda fun! i love dallas and brendon they are hilarious and such nice boys! :) they make school fun! and Mandy for sure makes school fun! and Alix haha sorry that im such a drag in the car im just soo tired and brain dead from school! im missin my sissy these days! i wish she would come home! well my message today is never sell yourself short! you are worth something and it is amazing when you stop and look around at all the ppl that depend on you and love you! just remember to count your blessing and live for the day! cuz you never know when it will be your last!

Love.Peace. Be Thankful!