Bored

Pic of the day thats ash and im way up there on the beach in North Carolina possibly South Carolina i cant really remember :)

Boredom rhymes with whoredom, but im pretty sure ho's dont get bored i mean seriously they have a lot to do. I hate being bored and that is seriously what i am right now. oh yea and lonely too! all my friends are either not texting back or working. so im stuck at home writing this blog to all you delightful people. hahaha dont i love you! so any who i worked all day and it was a hot beautiful day that i could have been tanning or swimming but instead i worked haha but its ok cuz i like money better than being tan. i dont know why having nice things makes you high maintence. its not that i couldnt not have nice things its just if you have a plan and you can afford it why not. and its not like im rollin in a new bmw or a new mercedes just a new chevy cobalt. if you didnt guess alreayd i got called high maintenced by a guy who does drive a mercedes i mean its not new or anything but still a mercedes is a mercedes. gosh can you believe that and when i said i wasnt he said i was in my choice of guys! can you believe that! ok ill admit dating somebody who has a lil bit of money is nice but i dont not date someone becuase they dont have any money. money isnt that important. when i was lil we were poor. I MEAN super poor ok not that poor but we were farmers and we didnt have much, a story that my dad loves to tell us is one year for his bday instead of getting him presents we all got a 5 dollar toy. just so that we could be happy thats all he wanted isnt he great! and for christmas one year him and my momma made me and my older sis ash doll houses fully carpeted and painted and nick a barn with cows and sheep. it was probably the best christmas present i ever got because it wasnt just a material gift it was something that they made especially for us! haha my point is that you can have just as much fun if not more fun without money! i wish people would get that. becuase the funnest people waste there whole life wasting away in an office doing pointless work. so i say live for the day! and dont settle for just one job for the rest of your life i mean unless your like a dr or something i see get out there and dont live the same day twice. alright now for the boy update. nothing so far.....:) A certain boy made my night last night just cuz he texted me and said he wanted to talk to me before he fell asleep. :) it was cute we only talked for a few min and he just wanted to know what i was up to but it was sweet. oh yeah so last night i got home from playing with alix and i watched the end of 27 dresses and i heard this like scratching noise and i was like oh it must just be a tumble weed in my window thingy so i just ignored it and finished my movie and i went downstairs to my room and i was getting ready for bed and i heard it again and again and lil wierd noises and i looked im my window well ( ding thats what its called) and there was no tumble weed ohhh noo there was the biggest mouse it looked like a hampster and at first it ran under these leafs ohhh it was soooo creepy so i just got into my bed and was trying to fall asleep but the stupid thing wouldnt shush so im like bangin on the window idk i was probably just scarring it worse so it made more sound haha but i could not sleep becuase that lil mouse was just a chatter box so i called nick and it was like midnight and im like nick how do i kill this mouse in my window thingy( yes i know what it is called but i didnt then im being accurate) and he is like idk sara just get a big rock and squish it. I was like SQUISH It seriously and he is like yeah so i head outside and it was cold and i was in shorts and a tank top so i made it like 6 inches out of the door and i changed my mind. ok so side story when i was lil i used to walk around the pasture and talk to plants and bugs haha i was a cute kid but ash and nick always make fun of me for it but i tell ya i went down into my room and i was like ok now its time to sleep so be quiet and sleep and i swear on my life that mouse did not make another sound and i checked to see if it was still there and it was just sitting there. so im tellin ya now i think im the mouse whisperer hahaha im serious too! hahaha oh yeah and another story we were putting lawn mowers away at work cuz it was starting to rain and i was alone, like always, and i look over on the side of the building and the MOST creepiest skankiest old man was giving me the i want you look! omg i was scarred to death he was wearing tight jeans and a cut off khaki vest thing oh my it was awful ugly so i just waited in the garage for a while just im safe there haha and then i went up front to see if he was gone and he was just sittin outside in the front of the store so i made my daddy go out with me and he scarred him away! ahhh there are some wierd ppl out there i tell ya! haha idk why this juts popped into my head but it did so i will tell you in the morning when im driving to school or work im usually eating something, breakfast, and this one morning i was eating a banana and i was driving to work and i was getting sick of eating it so i shoved a good 3/4 of it in my mouth so i had this huge monkey mouth thing going on and i was at a red light and i looked over at the truck next to me and THEE cutest boy was just lookin at me laughing and i tried to smile back oh gosh it was embarrassing and the worst thing is that that isnt he only time that has happened to me im always getting caught with a ton of food in my mouth by a hot boy hahaha its a curse. well thanks for listening i dont feel so bored now but i think im gonna go for a night walk!! :) it should be fun!

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Peace. Love. hope your not a bored whore!

Already Confused

yeah so im thinkin this pic is from freshman year!! :)

sorry i didnt write yesterday, i had no time. I went to Idaho falls with my mommy and we went shopping and then we went to the dr. I am very afraid of the dr. office, im always afraid they are gonna tell me im dying or that someone i love is dying. those are big fears in my life. and then after the dr( dont worry no one is dying) i went home and packed and went out to shys house. we went to gunner, her boys. graduation and then we went to his house ate cake and then went home to shys and went to sleep. then today we woke up at like 6:30 and got ready well kinda and took the kids, kels and brody, to school and then we went to shys school and checked her out. Then we went and got Kylee and went to mcdonalds it was yummy! Then we went to ky's parents store and chatted with her mommy. they made fun of us because a few weekends ago we were going around and around the round about and we got caught by a cop. they think its funny and it kinda is!! but after that we just went to the phone place saw a hot boy and got the kids from school and went home and then i drove back up to poky cuz im babysitting my cousin Jade today! she is one and the cutest lil thing ever. she can dance i tought her how:) so my thoughts on today are I HATE missing people. its the worst and i miss so many people today. the one i will say for sure is ASHY!! i miss her so much i wish she was here so that we could go play. she is my best friend and my sister and i cant wait for her to move home! even though she will be a mommy by the time she gets home! ohh im soo excited. I also hate missing old boys becuase there is nothing you can do. and you cant tell them becuase you want them to move on and be happy, when really deep down inside you just want to be like hey i love you please come back i promise i wont eff things up again. its hard letting go of something or someone you have loved, its nearly impossible. i dont think you ever stop loving something you once loved i think you can be mad at it, you can try to hate it, but really honestly i think you always love it. I wish boys werent stubborn and i wish they didnt make things akward! i wish you could be friends with people you have dated. lots of people have done it i think im jinksed i have never and probably will never be friends with someone i have dated. doesnt that suck! idk i think its becuase i will date a boy and then i get bored so i do something completely awful so that they will hate me and break up with me and then they just never get over it. im cursed and its awful. so note to my prince charming that i havent met yet im sorry but you are gonna have to put up with a lot and dont give up hope on me. i promise i always will come back to you. so just come find me!
well my last thought today came from the song dreamin with a broken heart.
i nearly bust into tears when i heard it going to go get liz from her friends house today. it is so true:
When you're dreaming with a broken heart The waking up is the hardest part You roll outta bed and down on your knees And for the moment you can hardly breathe Wondering was she really here? Is she standing in my room? No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.... When you're dreaming with a broken heart The giving up is the hardest part She takes you in with her crying eyes Then all at once you have to say goodbye Wondering could you stay my love? Will you wake up by my side? No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

but my message to all of you today is dont give up. last night at the graduation one of the validictorians talked about moving forward and doing great things with your life and his momma committed suicide a year ago and he said to never give up becase it is just a day today is friday tomorrow is saturday and it will get better if you make it better. so always look on the brightside.
Love.Peace. Never Give Up

hmm...

hahaha yeah that pic is me and shy riding a dino! we rock!!

Why does it seem like every other seventeen year old girl has found there husband already. i think i missed something. maybe some kind of special training. gosh im always left out. why is it so hard to find love in this town. ok its not hard to find it its hard to keep it. and it is hard to find the right one. gosh prince charming WHERE ARE YOU! i hate when boys say they are gonna call because they never do. isnt it typical. you would think that boys wouldnt want to be typical you would think they would want to stand out but oh no. It makes me sad. I am young but still i feel so lonely sometimes. I know i know im just a teenager and everybody feels this way but honestly i think im the only one who has ever felt like this. I have never had a huge crush on any one. I have never liked someone for longer than 6 months. I have never been in a super serious relationship. gosh i need to find out what love really means.
GOALS FOR SUMMER!!
Find our what love really means
find cute boy to test out love on :)
write to you good people and to you of the love im finding

that sounds good for now.
oh yes tonight me and alix and liz and regina went and played at a park and we went on the mary go round and we went so fast we all got sick it was a blast until alix threw up! hehe but it was still fun! we hit on the guy at pac sun. he was pretty cute not like a major hottie but pretty cute. he was sweet!
Well my last message of today is dont give up on hope. even when it feels like everything is going wrong dont give up. Just always give out positive energy and people will be drawn to it, also always be thankful for the many blessings you have.
Peace. love. Hope Dies Last.

End of Finals :( I hate school!!

Well finals are over. My worst semester of my life right here and it is all Mrs. Jean Hancock because she teaches like shit!!! and doesnt give extra credit. I got my first c ever in my entire life! and it was so close to a B but she wont give me any extra credit! AHHHH!!! i hate school and i am glad it is over OVER!! i can not wait to graduate. tests are stupid and pointless. The rain is coming and that is making me feel better i think i will go play in it before it turns into hail. i feel like climbing under a rock and never comin out. i could make dirt fashionable. :) im so bummed this is what failure is.... oy! well after i got done aceing my english final i went to the park and played on the swings alone. i had nothing better to do then after that i went to get a hot cocoa from common sense and i get a call from that cute boy matt. here is how it went
Sara: Hello
Matt: hey what are you doin?
Sara; Gettin a coffee
Matt: oh yeah i can see you
Sara: what?
Matt: Im watching you
Sara: thats creepy
Matt: no no im across the street we are lookin at renting this house and we are waiting for the landlord.
Sara: oh thats not that creepy
Matt: hahaha yeah you look hot today
Sara: im dressed 80's today( junior girls are wierd and i just went along with it by wearing leg warmers)
Matt: oh well you look hot to me
Sara: thanks
and we talked for a bit longer but thats basically the convo. cute huh! its funny how something like that will make your day. boys are good at making girls melt in there hands like butter. its probably a gift engraven into there genes. but what can i say i love melting. so ill tell you how me and matt met cuz i have time cuz im a failure at school and am skipping 6th hour what are they gonna do to me give me a detention its the last freaking day! any way so one day im feeling kinda crappy a couple a weeks ago junioritis and all i just didnt feel like doing anything so i left my 6th hour early and i was walkin to my car to go to work. i parked across the street from the tennis courts and these cute boys were playing tennis and im shy, or at least i pretend to be, and i just minded my own business while casually starring when they werent looking. anyway right before i got in my car i hear HEY! so i look over at the tennis courts and a cute boy is standing there starring at me. BUSTED!! hahahaha so i say hey back and hes like whats your name and im like sara and hes like come over her. hesitent but im like hey might as well enjoy the adventure. so i got over there and this boy is like whats your name and im like Sara what is yours and hes like im matt. your pretty sara. and im like thanks and hes like how old are you and im like a junior and hes like so you are 18 and im like no im 17 and hes like thats alright ill make an acception. hahahaha like he is so cool. then he asks for my number and im like nah you give me your number so he gave me his and made me promise id call and i texted him later and we have been friends ever since. turns out he is 22 and from new mexico where he is moving back soon. but you know at least i wont have a regret of not going over there and talking to him. its like on transformers when she is like im not getting in that thing and The VERY hot shia labeaf is like 50 years from now when you are lookin back on your life dont you wanna say you got in the car. and the inspirational music comes on and she gets in. that is like my favorite part in that movie. but it is so true. so my message to this blog is do wild and crazy things just so you can say you did them. no regrets take no prisioners and love every min of this life that god gave you. cuz you dont know when your last memory will be your last. live for today and dont live the same day twice. that is why as much as i am bummed about being average in chemistry at least i have a flaw at least i can say i failed at something i mean we all cant be perfect no matter how we try. oh and by the way this to my friends who like to rub their smartness in my face just try it and you will loose me forever i swear on your life we wont be friends for even a sec. after you say something hahaha FYI! so that is my blog for today. ill probably write back later with more info on today. i got a lot to live for so have a fun rainy afternoon
Love.Peace. No Doubts live for today!

People

So I just got down studyin with my new friend Alix who by the way is goin to kick my booty tomorrow on our Chem. final!! but we were talking about first kisses and I have realized that first kisses are not romantic at all!! at least mine wasnt. I was a freshman barely fifteen it was at the state softball tournament.... the boys name was justin he was my boy he was a sophomore and a real horn dog and he just walked up after the end of the first day and kissed me. It wasnt good it wasnt special infact i dont even remember it other than how it happened. isnt it funny that such an important event in someones life can just be treated like that just an event. it wasnt near what i excpected. I have only had a few romantic kisses in my life but how many meaningless kisses have i had COUNTLESS! its wierd how people take such a great thing and turn it into crap. And they give names to them Friends with benefits, people can be in a realtionship without actually being in a relationship. isnt that effed up!! another thing i would like to point out is how come boys dont appreciate how much girls actually like them. this always happens a boy likes a girl first then the girl starts liking him back and she likes him more and more and then the boy freaks out cuz she likes him to much. is there such a thing as liking some one to much. apparently soo because boys give that excuse all the time when really its fear. so this is to all the boys dont be afraid of girls liking you to much! we just love the cute things you do and say and they way you give us butterflies in our tummy. we like it when you are honest and personally i hate playing games. Oh yes and as i told my good friend Zac today dont not like someone less because they are so excited to like you trust me its a good thing there excited if it wasnt a big deal to them then they are turning into a taylor! And a secret message to my hot super model looking prince charming that i havent met yet i only like flowers when they are given for no other reason but to be given. i only like sweet talk when it is how you honestly feel. i love flirting and late night talks are muy bueno!! hahaha hope to find you soon and as for the rest of you ill be writing about this later but im tired and there are finals tomorrow so adios for now!!

Love. Peace. And NO Fear.

First day of finals

OY!! There is one thing in this world stupider than pep assemblies and that is finals week. I just dont understand how they think that if they put all the stuff we learned in one huge test worth 20% of our grade is doing anyone any good. I ll tell you what i learned i learned that if you lean teachers get suspisious but if you full on look at someones paper they dont do anything at all. finals suck. something else that sucks is taylor ***** i wont use last names. shes is a whore for sure! alright so this very cute boy hit on my the other day his name is matt and then today i see him chatting it up with taylor and you cant just go up and stop the convo. from happening. Taylor is one of those girls that has been in the spot light her whole life boys have always liked her and she has got on EVERY SINGLE ONE that crosses her path. i mean to get her track record you have to pull out the year book and start 5 years back. And the worst part of it all is that boys just line up to be her next victim i mean you would think that they would worry about stds or some wierd fungus but oh no they just keep coming. and she doesnt mind servicing them all up and moving to the next boy. I mean you would think that eventually she would want to have a realationship or she would want some stability but oh no its just one boy after the next. she is like a black widow spider she draws in her pray sucks the life out of them and then tosses their lifeless bodies aside like they are nothing. grr it steams me. so that just made my first day of mind busting even worse. but hey i got to park in the senior lot. very nice!
Boys are just totally frustrating. I think that high school boys are just absolutly ridiculous. the nice ones that want a relationship get a girl and stay with her for four years but all the rest of them are dogs. well i gotta go study day two of finals is tomorrow but just a lil something for you to think of while im gone is ...... Why do people always fight so hard for something they cant have and then when they get it they dont want it anymore is it all about the thrill of the chase or is it just that settling down is just to boring for people.... when will the chase ever come to an end?
Peace. Love. Safe the Whales.

Prom!

ok I feel stupid for writing again but i had to tell everyone about prom. ok so it all started about 10:30 a.m. when me and deck went to jonnys for breakfast after breakfast,which i had three waffles, we got on some four wheelers and started playing. I was on three diff four wheelers and a dirt bike for like three hours. I did not stop! I was the only girl who rode a dirt bike alone YAY me! and i wreck twice and i have tons of bruises on my legs thank goodness my dress was long. oh yeah and thank you Dallas Warren for saving me a million times your AMAZING!! hahaha any who after that i got ready for prom and i got ready quick im not one to over do it on the hair and make up. I hate feeling like a barbie doll. Then mom made me take a BILLION pic. all over the house. Then she pulled out ashys senior pics and made me copy some of them. some times i think she wishes i was ashlie. but finally deck came and got me and we went and took our prom pic its lame so dont excpect much then we went to dinner and the deckers home. it was DELICIOUS. oh but before that we took a million pics. and tylers mom patty is so cute she wanted to get a pic of me mandy and ty. i would marry her son ty tomorrow if he asked me. hahaha it was kinda highlight of my night. then it was off to the dance. which was fun until the strap on my dress ripped and my momma had to come to the rescue talk about embarrassing but its ok cuz i dont get embarrassed. then after we danced the night away we went to connors house and watched some wierd movie. i didnt do anything with deck just so you all know he is too much of a bro to me and i do not think of him like that. all in all prom was pretty bueno it wasnt dramatic at all and i had a good time. lets all pray that next year my super hot model looking boyfriend that i havent met yet will take me! lets hope!! oh yes and pray that i meet him soon cuz im bored hehehe!!

Iron Man!!!

Oh my Iron Man was AMAZING!!! Definately a bueno way to start out finals week!! oy finals! they frighten me. fyi the best way to study is alone or with someone who is not ADD unfortunatly i am way ADD so i am sorry Alix ty and mike if i mess up our study party! hehehe ill try but i hate being boring!!! i highly recommend goin and seeing iron man its worth the seven fifty at theaters and buckle up on the way home cuz after seeing that it is impossible to go the speed limit!! ZOOM ZOOM!!

hey love!

Hi people!
Im Sara James Rebel Kelly, or as most people know me Sara Kelly. I have an older sister Ashy who is mared to Jase they live in N.C. cuz Jase is currently serving our country, he is in the army, and they are excpecting their first baby! I cant wait to be an anty!!! My older bros name is Nick, he is a pimp and he loves it. He is my hero for sure. He is twenty and single so go ahead and ask me for his number cuz he is a looker!! :D hahaha then my lil sis Elizabeth, toad, or boo as i like to call her. She is 13 and goes to my fav. jr high Irving, yeah i ruled that school! hahaha I am 17 im almost a senior in two days!! i cant wait!!! i used to cheer but i quit because Cheerleaders are just so typical they are all BIOTCHES!!( i cleaned it up for you mom) so now im just trying to find things to do. Ill hopefully start dance and get a job so i can make bank. I love to run! Its how i work threw problems. I am just a fun loving girl looking for adventure! i love my family and i am oh so blessed to have them. We have so much fun together. My best friend Kimberly Shyann Wood (Shy) lives in S.R. we have some pretty amazing stories together. Mandy is my best friend in poky! summer is almost here and trust me you are gonna want to read my life cuz it is CRAZY!! hahaha ill probably write later today cuz im goin to go see Iron MAN!! YAY!!