Life :)

Wow Whoopps i havent written in almost a month! im not sure why probably because my life has been nothing but dull haha actually lots have happened! we will start with the events that occured on july 3rd! me and two of my best friends mandy and tiff went on a road trip, all of our first road trips alone! we went to jackson we were going to go to a dierks bentley concert! i love him but it got canceled and we had already booked our room so we decided to go anyway! we had a blast we went got our first hotel room ever! it was in driggs 30 min away from jackson and we drove down to jackson it was so much fun! then on the fourth of july we went and watch balloon races at 6 in the morning! wasnt worth waking up so early but i gotta say it was pretty sweet! then we drove home of course we stopped a few places along the way and shopped! :) then fireworks came and i went and hung out with my good friend Zac it was fun! first fourth of july i didnt kiss someone in a long time :) haha but ya well we had our annual boating trip last tuesday i freakin rocked the wake! oh ya i went to girls camp! WOW haha it was fun! we got super dirty bathed and swam in a nasty lake went boating in the beautiful scene and met cute boys! haha they were too old and one of them were my good friend andees ex fiance so ya! but me kira jara mandy and shan did go back and go boating with them a week after it was fun! but im totally jealous of stephanie cuz she is now dating one of them! oh yes and i gave up on boys! hahaha ok ok if you know me at all that is so not true! i say i do all the time but unfortunatly my life is full of boys! i cant get away from them! at all but i have decided im not going to date anyone until i am truely sure of who they are! having a brother is such an advantage! its great having sisters but i learn so much from the girls he brings home! each time i take a lil piece of there knowledge and use it in my life! for instance Lindsey was never wear sweats in public all though i have done that and nick had to wow her. and now jenny they had to hang out a month before she would be his GF haha and Andee well she is still teaching me a lot today but the most important is life is to short to be boring so make mistakes be sorry and date a lot! so that my good ppl is what i am going to do! im gonna date So freakin much it will blow your socks off! :)

oh yes and today we got the best suprise of them all! so nick was all weird yesterday we he left the house so i knew something was up and so today he comes in from church and he is like everyone gather and so we did and he was like i have a suprise and then BAM ashlie kelly taylor walks threw the freaking door of the kelly house mom screams we all start crying haha jase got sent to traning so she came home! its exciting! :) im sooo happy to have her home! finally! and she was lookin on her email the other day and found a bunch of like journal entries from when she was a year younger than me so now she is gonna send one to me each week! its so cool she was so smart and she was freakin a year younger than me! she had such a different look on life! so independent and she soaked in every moment ok well i only read the first one today but still she was so clever no wonder the boys loved her! i love her! im so excited the fantastic four are back together and the world is set right again! :) yesterday me Alix Gabby and Liz all went and took pics! haha so thats the pic!

my message today is soak in life live every moment and STOP BEING LAZY mostly a message to myself but still! :)

Love. Peace. Complete Again!

GRR IM MAD!!

boys I HATE BOYS!!! gosh im so mad! why cant boys be honest? please someone tell me and what the hell is wrong with them! grow up! ok every boys says girls mature faster than boys do but seriously not all of them can be immature and when the eff word are they gonna grow up! cuz it has been my excperience with older boys and younger boys they are all acting the same to me! ya know you tell a boy you dont want to kiss them they stop talking to you. you tell a boy you like them they ditch you of use you. you know the age old saying hump em and dump em well when the eff do boys grow up and stop living that way i mean dont they want someone dont they need someone just like girls do i would think that they do but sometimes they act so much like pigs its hard to see if they have any real feelings at all! GRRR im so frustrated and you know they say that girls are hard to understand no not really! sure we can be confusing but not all girls are hard to understand! im tired of putting it all out on the line and getting nothin back so world im giving up! and i mean it this time! i dont need boys they need me so from now on no feelings attached im going back to the freshman days when i had a one week plan! it worked out well i didnt have to worry about making some stupid boy happy! it was all about me! hahaha im selfish but im tired of being treated like some boys play toy! I AM NOT A MOUTH! there is actually something behind that! thats why i likes jake so much even tho i think he is gay now but he actually cared what is in my head hahaha its probably cuz he was gay! i think we should all just do tapangas idea from boy meets world just put all the boys in an underground cellar and pull them out when we need them! the world would be a better place! all our hearts would be safe and hey maybe some crapola would stop happening! prince charming where are you! im begining to think you dont exist anymore. life is hard and hurting the way i do sucks! i miss Quinn ok i said it but i do he was the best all he ever wanted to do was take care of me! he never bought me anything super expensive and that i loved because i felt like he wasnt trying to buy me! he was always just there! and i miss Ashy shes my best friend and im so lonely without her! gosh im tired of crying over stupid things like boys and loneliness stuff i cant change but if there is one wish i could have right now it would be that i could actually find someone to love and love me back!

Love. Peace. Life SUCKS!

Dancing thru Summer!

Well hello! its been awhile i guess a lot has happened! well to start ive had a long freaking week at summer school! oy im glad that is over only three days left! today i went to work all day and WOAH am i tired! ok so on thursday i went up to blackfoot to go to a jean party for my ex ast coach tiffany yeah the jeans were SO SO cute but way to expensive i wanted to cry! but i was hanging out with Shy and Kylee gosh i love those girls we had so much fun! we played on the tramp and made smores and sat there and laughed forever! haha it was a blast then after i left kylees house i got lost and so i called Quinn and he came and rescued me what a nice boy huh! we talked forever and i have to say i have missed him so much! its hard not to fall for him again cuz ill be honest if he asked me tomorrow i would marry him cuz i know we would have a fun life full of love and happiness haha im corny but yeah i think him and his girly got back together like the next day which kinda sucks but he is too far away any way! but gosh i wish............ anyway so then yesterday me and my mom got into a huge fight about fish it was the stupidest thing ever but i was mad so i left and went and chilled at work and watched movies in the employees lounge and tiff came and chilled with me for a bit it was fun then after that we went to deckers! oy it was so not fun! first the boys were being mean like always but they kept teasing me about my SR boyfriends and i dont have any so that was gay and then they were just being jerks and we went to jack in the box and mandy didnt want to ride with me which made me mad cuz i wanted to have a dance party but oh well she picked the boys car but whatever and then decker called mckaid gay and he kept hitting me with a bat and i was like you are an ass hole! haha everyone was shocked! i was pissed so we got back to deckers and i left and i was so so mad and i was alreayd mad cuz of the fight with mom so i went home and cried myself to sleep! haha fun stuff!! i talked to ashy yesterday ( yes you ash) and she said that jase might have to go to training for a month so she might fly me out to stay with her for a month OH MY FUN! but the only negative is my handsome doesnt get home til like the middle of july and ill be goin out to stay with ash at the end of july but oh well i waited for him he can wait for me! :) :) cuz im not missing that for the world! well i got ta go we are going to elmers! my message today is find love and keep it! oh yea and last night i had a dream that i owned a dance studio it was the cutest thing so ive decided im def gonna have one when i grow up!! FUN!!

peace. Love. Safe the whales

oy what an interesting day!

Hes the one i hold tight, the one i reach for in the middle of the night, the one i grab when ive had a fright, loveable and cuddly always there to tell my secrets to teddy bears cant stab you in the back cuz they dont have hands! there always there no matter what and when you dont need them you give them up to someone else to share, for all the pain and hurt you go threw teddy bears are there to hold you! Always there with love and care, he'll always be my teddy bear!

wow what a awfully wierd day i have had! it all began when i went outside this morning to go to school and someone soaped my car GRRR how annoying! i hate that so so so so bad! it drives me crazy! then on the way to school i learned that i dont have XM anymore :( then i went to school!! SNOOZE SNOOZE SNOOZE!! then i had to take my car to get the oil changed and i learned that my car guy jerry moved to honda! gosh that just sucks he said he would hook me up! then i almost died trying to cross the street! people are impatient! then i had to come home! gosh i wish i lived in a different state than my family! ok i love them all oh so much! they truely are the world to me but some days they get me sooo mad that i just want to sit in a lil ball and cry! maybe its cuz im a senior and all seniors get like this but i have never been the typical person idk maybe its cuz im having texting withdrawls im so sad! i want my handsome to come home to cheer me up he is traveling with his papa so he cant call and he barely texts! i hate it! i wish that life would be easier sometimes! but im glad that there are trials to make it hard that way things are worth more! haha oh yeah and we were outside all day for school and i got sunburned but hopefully it will turn into a tan:) only two weeks left! then the world will be flipped upside down! and i have a question why the eff do ppl get married! i thought it was for love and you trusted them you saw a future with them and they just completed you! haha someone should probably tell me why ppl really do it! well my message for today is hang on! days get hard some days suck but you know for every bad day a good one follows choose to be happy becuase being sad is atomatic happiness is a choice you make everyday! love yourself and those around you be thankful for this beautiful world god gave us and enjoy nature dont fear it! calm relaxing time is a must and when you love someone just tell them!

Love. Peace. Be happy!

ONE TREE HILL DRUGGIE!!

hahaha i know nice what a nice face i have huh!!

why hello ppl! alright this one is gonna be a long one cuz i havent written in a week so im gonna try and remeber everything that happened! well sunday night me and liz slept outside it was wonderful nice and warm mmm it was great it made me miss ashy and nick a lot tho thats what we always did when we were lil we would sleep outside on the tramp and look at the stars and when it got cold ash would sneak in and make a jar of hot cocoa and i dont think we ever drank it we would just hold it to keep warm!! :)

Tuesday well i dont think i did anything too important

Wednesday im thinkin this was the day me and mandy went on this large bike ride haha oh it was so much fun and then after that i went to a bonfire down at the highway pond! oh it was sooo much fun! i love bonfires with friends! and my friends are usually way fun to play with at bonfires cuz it doesnt get crazy cuz they dont drink so we all just chill and relax and chat! its fun!!

Thursday mom and dad left for bear lake its there 26th wedding aniversary. i dyed my hair PINK! hahah ok just one lil strip and yea it washes out! but it was way fun me and alix did it! then i went and played on the swings with this boy i just met Eric haha yea nothing happened but its ok i didnt want anything too! he was just fun to talk to! he tried to kiss me but i wouldnt let him! dont worry ashy hes a good mormon boy haha well i guess! oh yeah and me and casey got into a big fight because he is being the biggest baby on the planet! he is whinning cuz i dont go see him but im like hey man i aint your girly i dont have to go see you and idk he drives me crazy sometimes i like him as a friend and he is fun to chill with but i could never be his girl too demanding!

Friday i didnt have to go to school until 9 hmmmm it was great then after that i went to work then i went boating oh my it was so so so much fun! i got up on the wakeboard my first try! ohhh it was so much fun! then me and liz just chilled after i got home! i was up late talkin on the fun :)

Saturday got up and went to work than i went and saw maria at her work and took her some taco bell then i went home and chilled with liz then we got bored so we went and bought the first season of one tree hill and maria came over with food and then alix came over with more food and we all sat and watched it and then maria got addicted and we could not turn it off! haha we stayed up oh so late and now i am dead tired! i was on the phone last night with my handsome and gosh i was so out of it! excpecially toward the end... :) if you know me at all you know that i get absoulutly nutso when im tired and i do and say the wierdest things also im like the wierdest sleeper i eat and talk and walk in my sleep answer my phone and sometimes call ppl hahaha its an adventure! well last night i decided while on the phone with my handsome i was gonna tell him how i really felt oh gosh all i remember is saying i love you i love you! AHH scary i dont remember what he said back! haha which is no bueno! now im not mad that i told him i loved him because i think it just might be true!:) im just mad that i told him when i was all loopy and i have no idea how i said it or what he said back! oh gosh what an adventure!

Sunday we woke up early to go to church and we were both dead tired! then during church i sat with liz mike and lil green because there parents arent there either cuz his sissy just had a baby and we talked about all the gossip and drama going on in our group! i hate drama its pretty ridiculous! haha i cant wait to get out of highschool so i wont have to deal with immature girls any more!! well my message today is when you love someone tell them right then and there out loud cuz if you dont the moment will just pass you by and you will regret it! have you ever noticed on tv shows it will be like person a will tell person b that they love them and person b will get scarred and not say it back so then person a is heart broken and they move on and right as they do person b discovers they love person a so they go to tell them but its too late! dont be someone like that people! love is an emotion just like being sad just like being happy and think of all the times you say im happy out loud and how easy it is so when you feel the love just say it! out loud!!! i hope you all have a wonderful sunday im gonna go nappy time!!

Love. Peace. Just tell them!

Boatin time!!!

hahaha ashy you make me laugh i get on and my blog is all prettified well i cant talk long i will right later tonight but i wanted to tell you all im goin boating with mandy tiff and john and i am THRILLED i can not wait to get out in the water on a wakeboard ohhh there is nothin like it! im sooo excited!! oh yes and i think i have fallen for this boy im not gonna tell you his name but shhhh dont tell him! haha he makes me smile and i just i dont know!! :) im twiterpated so we will see what happens i just wanted to tell you all before i go an do a very dangerous activity that i love you all! I love my friends they are wonderful and help me with so much I LOVE my family they are all my heroes we would be the family of super heroes you all are soo wonderful and the inspiration to my life i love you all so much you are all irreplacable!! Im gooshy I want to tell you all that i have faith and believes in the true church which is the church of jesus christ of latter day saints without it i would be no where! the standards and values are what make me to be what i think a great person! i love life and if there is anything you could learn from me is to stop whining and just go out and live it make memories do stupid things kiss and love be happy and CTR! i love you Safe and peace be with you!
Love. Peace. Be Grateful!!

Happy D-Day

me and my daddy and holy crapola i look like a baby this is in oregon and i think it was eighth grade! WOW daddy looks the same tho! <3

I hate cheerleaders!! :) i know i know you are all saying um excuse me sara you were a cheerleader but seriously its like they are so snobby i hope i wasnt that snobby im sorry to all of you if i was i think i already told you all this story but i will tell you again and then i will tell you about my weekend cuz it was a bueno one! i was driving home from work the other day just rockin out you know doin what i do. and Anna m. drove past me thinkin she is all cool what a ho! she only made the squad because there wasnt anyone to choose from. and she has tried out every year since 8th grade and has never made it until this year that says something about there coach. so im like ohhh ho and i pass her and dont look so then she passes me again cuz i slowed down cuz i didnt want to get another ticket so she passes me and i dont look at her i flip her the bird but no where she could see it.... haha yeah ash you taught me that... and then i look up and she waves and i smile and wave back and threw my teeth im like you ho you think your sooo cool but im gonna beat your A!! haha im funny when im angry! but anyway MY WEEKEND!!

well i went to youth conference for church down in Logan on friday after school and it was a blast! I love Alix and Gabby we had so so so much fun in our room! and the dance was fun really retarded but still fun. and we went to some billionairs house and i saw the fastest most expensive car in the world! yeah i touched it! and then i saw my future car in my dreams a ferrari f 430 WOW im in love. and then the billionairs name was richard harris and he gave the best talk i have ever heard.. and then his daughter sang jenny phillips OMG she is AMAZING!! yeah her music will be played at the receiption of my wedding!! just FYI but then saturday wasnt that fun ok it was kinda fun but some parts were lame like this stupid scavenger hung!! :( but i had so much fun! then i got home and was dead yesterday so i took a shower and crunched my hair haha i dont have curly hair like my sissys and i went cruising haha yeah i got hit on a ton and got some hotties number and then this is the honest truth of what happened. so i was gonna go see casey allen cuz i didnt have anything else to do but decker and those guys wanted me to go over to mikes so i was gonna go say hi to casey and then go say hi to those guys but i had to wait for casey to get out of the shower and so i went to the stake center and i was just chillin there lookin at the stars and the city and stuff and then My stud Muffin called... no i wont tell you his name! and so i got all happy and i just absolutly ditched everyone so i could sit on the phone with him and everyone was texting me but i just didnt car cuz i was talkin to him! haha im a goober but its true .... i just went home and sat in my room and talked and if you know me you know that i dont like talkin on the phone cuz i usually have notta to say but when i was talkin to him i just had so much i wanted to tell him. so i basically spilled my guts and told him all the bad things well not all but some and he didnt care! haha yeah so i think im fallin for him which is bad cuz i have also fallen for this other boy and he is soo cute and nice and everyone in my fam loves him but i just cant help it i guess i will have to choose which sucks cuz i suck at choosing!! gosh idk how i get myself into these situations but i always do ya know. ive decided that im just gonna be completely honest to everyone and tell them all how i really feel ya know. and in the end if i end up alone i guess that is what is meant to be! then today after church my aunt chelle and my grandpa and my cousin and his friend and his dad allen came over to show us their new harley davidsons haha they are cute i wish i had girl cousins that were my age that would be fun!! but then after that me and mandy went for a walk up cherry creek ya we were eatin by mosquitos but it was fun and worth it. we always have the best talks haha they are always so random but like they always hit the spot! :)

i hate growing up senior year is gonna be the hardest one yet because this is the year that you basically decided who you are gonna be in life. i just wish i was five again then ashy would be home and the fab. 4 would all go out into the field and play in the cannel and have our own lil adventures! gosh i miss the good old days sooo bad i hate growing apart from my bro and sissys. me and liz have always been tight but ya know its hard because we will always be family but then someday we will each have our own families gosh! its hard growing up Life is just hard so just live it and have no regrets on any decision you make and be daring and out going and be crazy sometimes and when you love someone tell them and when you admire someone tell them! just always tell ppl the truth!

my message for today is be honest. cuz honesty is the best policy and no one likes to be lied to and no one likes lying so everyone should all just stop lying! well i just want to say also being as it is fathers day that i have the best poppy in the world he is my hero 100% he always knows how to make me feel better he yells at me when he should and lets me slid when i want to :) he is the best daddy ever and he puts up with a lot he is a true soldier of god and he will and has done Amazing and miraculous things in his life! I love you Daddy!! well i hope you all have a bueno day i will write back soon and tell you how the boy thing is coming.

Peace. Love. Happy Daddy Day and Just tell the truth~