Stiara~the brightest one

haha i think it is funny how i get on and my blog is always new!! haha thanks ashy!

well not to many exciting new stories! school started its boring senior year is a breeze!!! but ah well it will be over before you know it! i went to my first football game not cheering it was hard and it made me miss it but it was fun!!! i went to homecoming in ash's senior homecoming dress and had a ball!! it was so much fun!! and you know the usual boys and crazy haha i am dating a bit! not to many! i dont really want to get serious with anyone unless they are moving in a good direction and highschool boys as i am are totally scared out of there minds about the future no one has decided anything! i am still thinking about applying to usu i think i will i am not sure i will make it there but at least i can have the option! i am gonna move out directly after highschool and live with mandy for a bit! why a bit you say because her missionary will get home in october!! haha funny story so britt mandys mish. his companion doesnt have anyone to write so mandy and britt are playing match maker and we are writing each other well ok i wrote him and am patiently waiting for his letter to arrive but it could be fun!!! his name is elder hall me and mandy didnt know his name so we named him andy! haha i will hopefully know his real name on saturday and no worries i will def. let you know! ;) haha life is alright and i am jut trying to get by but i made up a new quote today...... having a rich and full life all depends on your measuring cup! haha pretty bueno huh!! well i am off to do something else

Peace.Love.Happiness!!

OY LIFE!

Wow so not lots has happened but lots has happen! I went to lagoon with shy gun and zack it was fun! it always seems like shy is pushing me to be with zack but both me and zack know that aint ever gonna happen. haha but it was pretty fun ive only been to lagoon 3 times in my life once when i was 5 once with shy in the fifth grade and now this time with shy and im a senior! its weird being so old! i dont feel old! i dont look old! haha but i guess i am just that old! most of you are probably reading this and saying your not old but yes to me i am! in fact i have written out my last words that i want my family to read in case i die! its true there in my room in a notebook the title is in case i die! haha im funny! but i want my family to know how i felt about each of them in case i die! i think its a good idea and no im not counting on the fact that i will die! i just didnt want them to ever wonder! :) soooo i am having an emotional distance probably lets start with shy! im goin to vent to you all cuz i am sure everyone around here is sick of listening to me! but my best friend in the whole wide world does not have time for me any longer she has her boy gunner and gosh those two drive me crazy. they are just not perfect in the way they should be its probably cuz i want shy to marry a freakin abercrombie model cuz that i think would just fit her. ( sara is a weirdo happy ash) :) im just very lonely without having my best friend last summer we were basically insepertable i was down there all the time and she was up here a lot too. she came to the cabin we went on vacation and shopping together and it was so much fun! i cant help but feel us growing apart and it is just killin me inside cuz she is more than my friend she is my sister the one i tell everything to now i feel like im just bugging her when i text her! idk maybe she is just busy. oy i wish i had the guts to just tell her that i miss her! ok ill stop venting now! and then there is my firefighter no i wont put his name in here cuz we never know how long these boy relationships will last but gosh im twiterpatted flabbergasted by my firefighter. he is in salmon right now but he comes home the 15 and we are both counting the days! but you know you never know haha i think its funny how all us kelly girls get long distance relationships and then we marry someone right under our noses! its true it always happens! well this next week i have to go to effin efy yikes im not lookin forward to it! but oh well ill survive hopefully! i have so much i want to tell you but my mind is a total blank as of now so hopefully ill be back!

Love. Peace. Get Some Guts!

Life :)

Wow Whoopps i havent written in almost a month! im not sure why probably because my life has been nothing but dull haha actually lots have happened! we will start with the events that occured on july 3rd! me and two of my best friends mandy and tiff went on a road trip, all of our first road trips alone! we went to jackson we were going to go to a dierks bentley concert! i love him but it got canceled and we had already booked our room so we decided to go anyway! we had a blast we went got our first hotel room ever! it was in driggs 30 min away from jackson and we drove down to jackson it was so much fun! then on the fourth of july we went and watch balloon races at 6 in the morning! wasnt worth waking up so early but i gotta say it was pretty sweet! then we drove home of course we stopped a few places along the way and shopped! :) then fireworks came and i went and hung out with my good friend Zac it was fun! first fourth of july i didnt kiss someone in a long time :) haha but ya well we had our annual boating trip last tuesday i freakin rocked the wake! oh ya i went to girls camp! WOW haha it was fun! we got super dirty bathed and swam in a nasty lake went boating in the beautiful scene and met cute boys! haha they were too old and one of them were my good friend andees ex fiance so ya! but me kira jara mandy and shan did go back and go boating with them a week after it was fun! but im totally jealous of stephanie cuz she is now dating one of them! oh yes and i gave up on boys! hahaha ok ok if you know me at all that is so not true! i say i do all the time but unfortunatly my life is full of boys! i cant get away from them! at all but i have decided im not going to date anyone until i am truely sure of who they are! having a brother is such an advantage! its great having sisters but i learn so much from the girls he brings home! each time i take a lil piece of there knowledge and use it in my life! for instance Lindsey was never wear sweats in public all though i have done that and nick had to wow her. and now jenny they had to hang out a month before she would be his GF haha and Andee well she is still teaching me a lot today but the most important is life is to short to be boring so make mistakes be sorry and date a lot! so that my good ppl is what i am going to do! im gonna date So freakin much it will blow your socks off! :)

oh yes and today we got the best suprise of them all! so nick was all weird yesterday we he left the house so i knew something was up and so today he comes in from church and he is like everyone gather and so we did and he was like i have a suprise and then BAM ashlie kelly taylor walks threw the freaking door of the kelly house mom screams we all start crying haha jase got sent to traning so she came home! its exciting! :) im sooo happy to have her home! finally! and she was lookin on her email the other day and found a bunch of like journal entries from when she was a year younger than me so now she is gonna send one to me each week! its so cool she was so smart and she was freakin a year younger than me! she had such a different look on life! so independent and she soaked in every moment ok well i only read the first one today but still she was so clever no wonder the boys loved her! i love her! im so excited the fantastic four are back together and the world is set right again! :) yesterday me Alix Gabby and Liz all went and took pics! haha so thats the pic!

my message today is soak in life live every moment and STOP BEING LAZY mostly a message to myself but still! :)

Love. Peace. Complete Again!

GRR IM MAD!!

boys I HATE BOYS!!! gosh im so mad! why cant boys be honest? please someone tell me and what the hell is wrong with them! grow up! ok every boys says girls mature faster than boys do but seriously not all of them can be immature and when the eff word are they gonna grow up! cuz it has been my excperience with older boys and younger boys they are all acting the same to me! ya know you tell a boy you dont want to kiss them they stop talking to you. you tell a boy you like them they ditch you of use you. you know the age old saying hump em and dump em well when the eff do boys grow up and stop living that way i mean dont they want someone dont they need someone just like girls do i would think that they do but sometimes they act so much like pigs its hard to see if they have any real feelings at all! GRRR im so frustrated and you know they say that girls are hard to understand no not really! sure we can be confusing but not all girls are hard to understand! im tired of putting it all out on the line and getting nothin back so world im giving up! and i mean it this time! i dont need boys they need me so from now on no feelings attached im going back to the freshman days when i had a one week plan! it worked out well i didnt have to worry about making some stupid boy happy! it was all about me! hahaha im selfish but im tired of being treated like some boys play toy! I AM NOT A MOUTH! there is actually something behind that! thats why i likes jake so much even tho i think he is gay now but he actually cared what is in my head hahaha its probably cuz he was gay! i think we should all just do tapangas idea from boy meets world just put all the boys in an underground cellar and pull them out when we need them! the world would be a better place! all our hearts would be safe and hey maybe some crapola would stop happening! prince charming where are you! im begining to think you dont exist anymore. life is hard and hurting the way i do sucks! i miss Quinn ok i said it but i do he was the best all he ever wanted to do was take care of me! he never bought me anything super expensive and that i loved because i felt like he wasnt trying to buy me! he was always just there! and i miss Ashy shes my best friend and im so lonely without her! gosh im tired of crying over stupid things like boys and loneliness stuff i cant change but if there is one wish i could have right now it would be that i could actually find someone to love and love me back!

Love. Peace. Life SUCKS!

Dancing thru Summer!

Well hello! its been awhile i guess a lot has happened! well to start ive had a long freaking week at summer school! oy im glad that is over only three days left! today i went to work all day and WOAH am i tired! ok so on thursday i went up to blackfoot to go to a jean party for my ex ast coach tiffany yeah the jeans were SO SO cute but way to expensive i wanted to cry! but i was hanging out with Shy and Kylee gosh i love those girls we had so much fun! we played on the tramp and made smores and sat there and laughed forever! haha it was a blast then after i left kylees house i got lost and so i called Quinn and he came and rescued me what a nice boy huh! we talked forever and i have to say i have missed him so much! its hard not to fall for him again cuz ill be honest if he asked me tomorrow i would marry him cuz i know we would have a fun life full of love and happiness haha im corny but yeah i think him and his girly got back together like the next day which kinda sucks but he is too far away any way! but gosh i wish............ anyway so then yesterday me and my mom got into a huge fight about fish it was the stupidest thing ever but i was mad so i left and went and chilled at work and watched movies in the employees lounge and tiff came and chilled with me for a bit it was fun then after that we went to deckers! oy it was so not fun! first the boys were being mean like always but they kept teasing me about my SR boyfriends and i dont have any so that was gay and then they were just being jerks and we went to jack in the box and mandy didnt want to ride with me which made me mad cuz i wanted to have a dance party but oh well she picked the boys car but whatever and then decker called mckaid gay and he kept hitting me with a bat and i was like you are an ass hole! haha everyone was shocked! i was pissed so we got back to deckers and i left and i was so so mad and i was alreayd mad cuz of the fight with mom so i went home and cried myself to sleep! haha fun stuff!! i talked to ashy yesterday ( yes you ash) and she said that jase might have to go to training for a month so she might fly me out to stay with her for a month OH MY FUN! but the only negative is my handsome doesnt get home til like the middle of july and ill be goin out to stay with ash at the end of july but oh well i waited for him he can wait for me! :) :) cuz im not missing that for the world! well i got ta go we are going to elmers! my message today is find love and keep it! oh yea and last night i had a dream that i owned a dance studio it was the cutest thing so ive decided im def gonna have one when i grow up!! FUN!!

peace. Love. Safe the whales

oy what an interesting day!

Hes the one i hold tight, the one i reach for in the middle of the night, the one i grab when ive had a fright, loveable and cuddly always there to tell my secrets to teddy bears cant stab you in the back cuz they dont have hands! there always there no matter what and when you dont need them you give them up to someone else to share, for all the pain and hurt you go threw teddy bears are there to hold you! Always there with love and care, he'll always be my teddy bear!

wow what a awfully wierd day i have had! it all began when i went outside this morning to go to school and someone soaped my car GRRR how annoying! i hate that so so so so bad! it drives me crazy! then on the way to school i learned that i dont have XM anymore :( then i went to school!! SNOOZE SNOOZE SNOOZE!! then i had to take my car to get the oil changed and i learned that my car guy jerry moved to honda! gosh that just sucks he said he would hook me up! then i almost died trying to cross the street! people are impatient! then i had to come home! gosh i wish i lived in a different state than my family! ok i love them all oh so much! they truely are the world to me but some days they get me sooo mad that i just want to sit in a lil ball and cry! maybe its cuz im a senior and all seniors get like this but i have never been the typical person idk maybe its cuz im having texting withdrawls im so sad! i want my handsome to come home to cheer me up he is traveling with his papa so he cant call and he barely texts! i hate it! i wish that life would be easier sometimes! but im glad that there are trials to make it hard that way things are worth more! haha oh yeah and we were outside all day for school and i got sunburned but hopefully it will turn into a tan:) only two weeks left! then the world will be flipped upside down! and i have a question why the eff do ppl get married! i thought it was for love and you trusted them you saw a future with them and they just completed you! haha someone should probably tell me why ppl really do it! well my message for today is hang on! days get hard some days suck but you know for every bad day a good one follows choose to be happy becuase being sad is atomatic happiness is a choice you make everyday! love yourself and those around you be thankful for this beautiful world god gave us and enjoy nature dont fear it! calm relaxing time is a must and when you love someone just tell them!

Love. Peace. Be happy!

ONE TREE HILL DRUGGIE!!

hahaha i know nice what a nice face i have huh!!

why hello ppl! alright this one is gonna be a long one cuz i havent written in a week so im gonna try and remeber everything that happened! well sunday night me and liz slept outside it was wonderful nice and warm mmm it was great it made me miss ashy and nick a lot tho thats what we always did when we were lil we would sleep outside on the tramp and look at the stars and when it got cold ash would sneak in and make a jar of hot cocoa and i dont think we ever drank it we would just hold it to keep warm!! :)

Tuesday well i dont think i did anything too important

Wednesday im thinkin this was the day me and mandy went on this large bike ride haha oh it was so much fun and then after that i went to a bonfire down at the highway pond! oh it was sooo much fun! i love bonfires with friends! and my friends are usually way fun to play with at bonfires cuz it doesnt get crazy cuz they dont drink so we all just chill and relax and chat! its fun!!

Thursday mom and dad left for bear lake its there 26th wedding aniversary. i dyed my hair PINK! hahah ok just one lil strip and yea it washes out! but it was way fun me and alix did it! then i went and played on the swings with this boy i just met Eric haha yea nothing happened but its ok i didnt want anything too! he was just fun to talk to! he tried to kiss me but i wouldnt let him! dont worry ashy hes a good mormon boy haha well i guess! oh yeah and me and casey got into a big fight because he is being the biggest baby on the planet! he is whinning cuz i dont go see him but im like hey man i aint your girly i dont have to go see you and idk he drives me crazy sometimes i like him as a friend and he is fun to chill with but i could never be his girl too demanding!

Friday i didnt have to go to school until 9 hmmmm it was great then after that i went to work then i went boating oh my it was so so so much fun! i got up on the wakeboard my first try! ohhh it was so much fun! then me and liz just chilled after i got home! i was up late talkin on the fun :)

Saturday got up and went to work than i went and saw maria at her work and took her some taco bell then i went home and chilled with liz then we got bored so we went and bought the first season of one tree hill and maria came over with food and then alix came over with more food and we all sat and watched it and then maria got addicted and we could not turn it off! haha we stayed up oh so late and now i am dead tired! i was on the phone last night with my handsome and gosh i was so out of it! excpecially toward the end... :) if you know me at all you know that i get absoulutly nutso when im tired and i do and say the wierdest things also im like the wierdest sleeper i eat and talk and walk in my sleep answer my phone and sometimes call ppl hahaha its an adventure! well last night i decided while on the phone with my handsome i was gonna tell him how i really felt oh gosh all i remember is saying i love you i love you! AHH scary i dont remember what he said back! haha which is no bueno! now im not mad that i told him i loved him because i think it just might be true!:) im just mad that i told him when i was all loopy and i have no idea how i said it or what he said back! oh gosh what an adventure!

Sunday we woke up early to go to church and we were both dead tired! then during church i sat with liz mike and lil green because there parents arent there either cuz his sissy just had a baby and we talked about all the gossip and drama going on in our group! i hate drama its pretty ridiculous! haha i cant wait to get out of highschool so i wont have to deal with immature girls any more!! well my message today is when you love someone tell them right then and there out loud cuz if you dont the moment will just pass you by and you will regret it! have you ever noticed on tv shows it will be like person a will tell person b that they love them and person b will get scarred and not say it back so then person a is heart broken and they move on and right as they do person b discovers they love person a so they go to tell them but its too late! dont be someone like that people! love is an emotion just like being sad just like being happy and think of all the times you say im happy out loud and how easy it is so when you feel the love just say it! out loud!!! i hope you all have a wonderful sunday im gonna go nappy time!!

Love. Peace. Just tell them!